How do I sum up this recent blogging hiatus? It wasn’t so much a case of writers block as a case of too many topics and life situations fluttering about in my head, like a wordy tornado. I couldn’t seem to pin down anyone topic to write about.
Recently my mother, in the somewhat final stages of metastasized colon cancer, was finally accepted into a long-term care facility. It really couldn’t have come at a better time as her mobility has decreased dramatically while her pain levels have risen. Also, where she had been living, with her parents, had become too difficult and she wasn’t able to have the level of care she needed there. It didn’t help that my grandmother, her mother, has become ill herself and was admitted to hospital as well.
All in all, it has been a stressful time, yet a positive outcome eventually. These changes have come at a time during my pregnancy when I am starting to go inward and focus more on the upcoming birth. Hubby and I have decided to try for a home-birth if everything continues to look good medically speaking.
It amazes me to be caught in the middle of these life events, the upcoming birth of our baby girl and the eventual death of my mother. Being a part of both has its stresses and yet also a sense of wonder. Both birth and death are so intermingled in life right now. It is an amazingly wonderful and humbling force to be so closing tied to.
So for the time being, I don’t know where this blog with go, what direction it will take or what I will write about in the coming days. I only know I need to get back on here, for myself and my own sanity.
Hopefully I will find more inspiration to write something interesting and noteworthy…or at least entertaining.